For All The Grief

And if you make the one into two
And the one realm into the sky and the sea
Then you will have committed a great sin
But fear not, your heart will carry on
Your winds will carry grain
Your chimneys soot
Your fingers spices salting shiftless tidal rinses
Your adoration is a mill
You beat your breath until you're still
And then the stars welcome you
Your adoration is a mill
You who drive to work everyday
Do you think your car runs on gasoline
Do you believe that your assembly lines shiver
And spill with the blind energies of cranks and gears
No
Your adoration is a mill
I beckon you, be useful
Nay I say, be used

I don't wanna be in love again
I went to a restaurant the other day
Everybody behind the counter was pleasant to me
I was a friend for my business
Also by way of humanity
Then I said thank you and left and I wish
That those could be the parameters for every day
No burden upon my thoughts or my feelings
No paranoia, no inner toying
No machiavellian ploying or boredom annoying
Just selfish self-love with no threats
And no debts to those brats who know that
I'll never love myself if I never love myself in front of them

You know I haven't always felt this way
But recently I have been led astray
I've internalized information without humanity

Praise be to all loss I've had enough of the phases
But again a friend is made anew
And I'm striking the mind mine for phrases
Like who are you who am I how will two of us combine
To one mind if I find you are trite because I lost my sight
And I know a friend is over we are kinda temporary
Kinda evil kinda scary that's how it is
Try to remedy you gonna be you gonna be
You lemme be you gonna see that I am ultimately meaningless
I don't wanna witness
Don't wanna know just wanna live

I'm hiding what's inside
From myself to myself rid the need from within my chest
It's immaterial how I become effectively alone
As long as I'm still alive in a bone home

I want you to hate me
If you love me you'll use me inadvertently
If you love me you'll think you can control me
My ideas, my thoughts
It's not that I wouldn't give them to you
But how would I know
What was trust and what was usage
I'm just not sure anymore
Somewhere up in the sky
Is a place I know
It's a beautiful blue pool of planet
And it's drifting off into a bright orb
We fall away
We fall away
Nobody came
Please don't be sane