Self Inflicted Misery

Every time we talk to each other
There's always that sense of disgust

I see the look of fear paired with the
Feeling of horror receding as I walk away

My skull can handle nothing
Numbed and grown to shellshock
Blessed to even be conscious of my own
self

Wrought upon my own destruction let's
Wait and see
Inside the victims plea you'll pray to flee

Teeth on the curb flying is my lesson
Learned
I must get my own feelings hurt
To decide which thought came first
The pain or the guilt

Bless the heathen which you call
Son
His name is mine and only called
Underneath a sun divided

The bright dull moon shines on my depressed
Look
I see myself in your eyes and you see
The hopeful eyes you took

These screams are my own
Terror shrieks from the darkest
Looks of the tempest
Thrown off just to slap
Against the sidewalk
Still alive
Still conscious
Still envying
Still implying
I am NOTHING
Numbskull