Monster's Lament (feat. Tim Ripper Owens)

At last my friend we meet again too long it seems
Sit down the night is young the drinks are on me
So good to finally see an old familiar face
For old time's sake my friend let's close this place

We'll make up for lost time
Relive our storied past
The years just sped on by
These moments never last

The hours pass the spirits flow we're young again
Recalling things we've done and places we have been
Laughing incessantly the best night in years
Last call final round closing time's here

Let's hit the road, night can't end we'll take a ride
So late no one's on the streets, we will be just fine
Charging into the night below a spinning sky
That I can barely see I may just close my eyes

Rest well I'll take you home
While I fight to hold the road
I keep my dead eyes peeled
As shadows disappear beneath the wheels

Never have I been more awake than that moment in time
I fear what I will see as I turn to look behind
A nightmare realized for me yet still you sleep
Panic sets in as I pull you over to where I'd been

Run, run, run, is all I can think as sirens scream
Well don't turn around keep pretending it's all just a dream
I look back to see them dragging you out unaware
Of what's occurred or that I was even there

Now is my chance to go back and make things right
Own up to my evil deed and taking of life
Marching back to face the music
I suddenly stop and freeze
Turn tail and run again, a coward
It's taken over me

Where am I? How did I get here?
Who are these people surrounding me?
Why am I in pain? Why am I in chains? Somebody please anew me
I can't have done what they said I've done... how could I?
I just don't know
My head's ringing, I don't remember a thing
I woke up to find that I am a monster

I can't believe, this is not me,
how the hell could I have been so wrong?
To not have known self control
and now because of me souls are gone
I won't look at myself the same,
the guilt and shame consumes my soul

I can't stand to face what I've become
I can't stand to face what I've become

If only I could go back and cake their place
If only I never made you take my place
That night will forever haunt me
That night will forever haunt me

I won't survive the years here locked away deservedly
And I can't survive the guilt inside of me

I slip my fate over my head
And I pray that you'll forgive me

Just one small step for a man
To end the suffering by my own hand