I Miss the Winter

It feels like just yesterday, I was in your living room
We liked to talk about the things we'd like to do
How life seemed far too fast, and how death came way too soon

I miss the winter, I know you do too
The days that I cherish are to this day the ones I rue
Spent my best years looking like a fool

And I don't wanna come around
You hurt the ones you love, and it's unfounded
And I don't wanna think about
All the victims you've claimed
I've been angry for a long time
I feel enraged
And though it isn't your fault
I can't bring myself to stay

The ballad of an addict, the sick mistakes
Addicted to the tragic endings you make
It's monochromatic
Look into the future, all you see is static

I tried to live your life
It chewed me up, and spit me out the other side
You'll never know how much I wish you were right
And I've got nothing now, but a lack of foresight

And I don't wanna come around
You hurt the ones you love, and it's unfounded
And I don't wanna think about
All the victims you've claimed
I've been angry for a long time
I feel enraged
And though it isn't your fault
I can't bring myself to stay

And no, I'm not better off
Everything got so much worse
When I could finally understand it
I could really feel the hurt

And if I miss the winter
What's the harm in trying again
But then I think back to that night
Wait, we could never be friends

Don't ever want your pity, my honor is the last thing I can defend
And even that's debatable, looking at the way things ended
More on you later, but now I need to decide
Do we have another chat, or do I. do I