Whatever She Has

In a dimly lit corner
I'm beginning to lose my sense of self
I've got pockets of emptiness
And the cards are stacked, I'm alive
And I'm full of caress
And if the barman gives you something
Turn over look to your left
I'm broken for you, my heart is ripping my chest
Sip and smile for a while
While I begin to slowly lose my mind

I'll buy whatever she'll have
And the cat is in the bag
I'll buy whatever she'll have
The debt is worth the laugh
And if she won't go for that
I will chase her 'til she trips and she falls for me
And she'll fall so deep

I can't believe my state as she walks in these heels
I'm disgusting inside but I'll keep it concealed
And there's so many times I can feel what's inside
And it may mean doing things that I may want to hide cause
A man's gotta do what he thinks he has to do to survive
I'm mad in the head and that I have to disguise
As I get up to leave I wish she'd leave here with me
But I know my thoughts are fucked and diseased

Why is there blood on my hands
It's hard to understand
Why is there blood on my hands
It's so hard to comprehend
Why is there blood on my hands
In the end it's my lack of empathy

Cause a man's gotta do what he thinks he has to do to survive
I'm mad in the head and this I have to disguise
And as I get up to leave
I wish she'd leave here with me
But I don't wish I could change how I think

I've got whatever she has
What she's got is such a drag
I've got whatever she has
It's so sad I have to laugh
I've got whatever she has
In the end it is my lack of empathy
Where's my sympathy