Rotting/ Roses

If I could draw the pictures of your face
I'd carve them into my skin
An evergreen haunting me
I'm glad you thought the same thing

Now I know what I want
It's more than I'd ever ask for
Paintings in the places you'd walk
I'll turn back turn to give you more

She said I'd fall for you if you ask it
There's nothing more that I'd give
In your arms, away from the world
Release my scars, I'll let it hurt
Just don't let it get too much for me

I used my eyes to write the thoughts that troubled my shaking hands
My bones tied together, the letters in the sand
It started speaking words that my eyes found too bright
Your name broke my heart and I died again tonight

I had to let go of the things that I had buried
I'm still haunted by everything, every single memory
And the truth is that I never really left
I only held on to the hope that you'd not forget

I remember to forget the things I'd done
I can't face them in time, I can only watch and run
I pride myself in things I love
When they come around and hurt me
I'll lose all of my self respect never taking it so harshly

The aching pain of being awake, sleep is just a daydream
Open eyes, scratched up thighs, tears aren't what they seem

I used my eyes to write the thoughts that troubled my shaking hands
My bones tied together, the letters in the sand
It started speaking words that my eyes found too bright
Your name broke my heart and I died again tonight

And I wouldn't see the right way if I had to
Backtracking thoughts to where I thought that I knew
Every star, every streetlight showed the ways I could have died
And you were the only thing keeping me alive