Confessions

I know we tried to make it work
But who we trying to convince?
We said we'd always be friends
But we ain't talk ever since
After everything we went through
We couldn't make amends
One day we woke up and the love was gone
And that don't make any sense
I never saw your point of view
'Cause I was looking through my own lens
And I would brush you off sometimes
When all you needed was to vent
We lost the trust that we once had
And that's when things got tense
You never questioned where I went
Who, where, why, or when
I was totally against
You walking out that door and leaving
I know that you were fed up
And you had every reason
I spent most of our relationship
Fighting with my demons
I know you think that I was good to you
But looks can be deceiving
When you told me that you loved me
I wanted to believe it
When I told you that you hurt me
I wanted you to feel it
But the legions in my heart have healed
With the passing of the seasons
And the life together that we once shared
Will never lose its meaning

Oh baby, oh oh oh
Oh baby, baby
I didn't wanna walk away baby
Oh baby, oh oh oh
Oh baby, baby
I'm so down, girl I'm sorry
Baby listen now

I always put the blame on you
When it was really on me
Maybe it was my jealousy
And my insecurities
One day I'd be in it for the long haul
I'm talking about marriage
The next day I couldn't picture it
And I wouldn't even care if
You called me, texted
Or left me a message
I was too busy messing, sexing
And acting reckless
Meanwhile my intentions
Pulled me in other directions
The void I felt left me looking for
Other women's affection
I was caught up in messes
That you can't even imagine
I was lusting my ass off
And had confused it with passion
And at the time when it was happening
I didn't realize
I was dabbling with this one and that one
Living a lie
And I no longer recognized
The person that was in the mirror
But I could tell deep in my eyes
That I had so much fear of
Being alone, on my own
Opening the door to an empty home
I should've known
Something was wrong
When you stopped answering
The god damn phone
But I'm so busy being pissed off
That I don't stop to the think
The damage that I'm causing is enough for
Both of us to sink
But none of it was worth it
There's no better way to word it
Then to just say that I care for you too much
To see the verdict
I let you walk away
Before it all went any further
I know inside deep in my heart
I never meant to hurt ya
So I'm asking you to forgive me
In front of an audience
The mistakes and the regrets
Will rest forever on my conscience 'cause

Oh baby, oh oh oh
Oh baby, baby
Why'd you walk away baby?
Oh baby, oh oh oh
Oh baby, baby
I'm so down, girl I'm sorry
Baby listen now