Martyrs

Oh I'm away right now
I'm jumping on a plane
No coming back right now
I know I said I'd be there
But I can't right now
I know you don't believe it
But I'm gone right now
And I don't see me coming back
To who I was
I saw you in the corner
And it made me cry
To think of all the life I maybe
could have had
To think of all the man
I maybe could have been
But I have tried and failed
And now I'm far away
From anything I could have dreamed
I'm lost right now
I tried to grab a hold
But it all slipped away
I let in all my demons
And it slipped away
And now I can't have you

So tell me where
Is now
The man you called your friend
Oh girl he's all but gone
His addictions got ahold
And now he lives for them
For them he'll lie and steal and cheat
if you stood in his way
He would break you to
They were supposed to calm
All the world around me
Now they raise the noise
Screaming in my ears
And now it never stops
Tearing at my at my soul
And now the blood on my hands
Rises to my eyes
And now they sing to me
A Gentle Russian chorus
Like a symphony
Telling me of all the things
That could have been
If I were not the sinner
I fear I'll always be
If I were not the man
I fear I'll always be

I was supposed to be
So much more than this
All of the sacrifice
Made on my behalf
All of the martyrs blood
Shed so I could live
And now I turn away
From everything they loved
And what's the card I play
I sin because I'm pained
No hint of sacrifice
Inside this life I live
No place to pin the blame
Of all these things I've done
No place to hide the shame
Of all these things I've done
I was supposed to be
So much more than this
I was supposed to be
So much more than this
All of the martyrs blood
Shed on my behalf
All of the martyrs blood
And what have I become
I was supposed to be
I was supposed to be
I was supposed to be
So much more than this



Credits
Writer(s): Yousef Kamel
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