I Just Hope You Know That I Meant Well

I lost track of why I do this in the first place
Resented all the people that hurt me
Thought maybe I should end it on my birthday
That would've been perfect
Think maybe I was meant to be alone
I don't know why I even check my phone
It's not like anybody ever calls

But, I just hope you know that I meant well
I just hope you know that I tried my best
I just hope you know that I meant well

I just hope you know that every time I saw you cry, it
Made me want to set the world on fire in your name
But, I set myself on fire instead
And you weren't there to put it out when it spread

But, I just hope you know that I meant well
I just hope you know that I meant well, I do
I just hope you know that I meant well
I just hope you know that
I just hope you know that

I just hope you know that
'Cause I set myself on fire instead
And you weren't there to put it out when it spread
I hope you know that

Consider this as my resurgence
I've conquered most my hurting
I could've killed myself but then I would've let you win
And I can't stand the thought of losing
I couldn't look that stupid
And if we're being honest
We were never on the same playing field anyway

I could probably run the score up with both hands tied in a hailstorm
And that's on God, I was built in a way that only God knows
But you'll never know, because he ain't real
But, we buy that shit, don't we buy that shit? Yeah
Then we sell people on some bullshit
Sell 'em dreams they can't cash in
Give 'em hope just take it away
Because conflict's more productive
And it's so exhausting
But, I just hope you know that I meant well