Why'd You Leave?

You don't understand the pain I feel
You don't know how much I hate to be me
No, you don't understand the pain
You don't know what I've been through

Yeah, I feel happy and sad, I feel like a contradiction
She heard me after, she promised me that this time was different
So now my guard's up, I lost my trust, hoping I could fix it
Should've trust my gut, was hurt by love, so that's why I'm defensive

You said you love me, didn't hurt me, something ain't adding up
I cried, burying the future that I had planned for us
I'm trying to outrun my past, I guess I'm not fast enough
It's crazy how these people we meet can just damage us

But fuck it, I'll just move along and wipe away my tears
I always held my own, I've been alone for all these years
My biggest fear is wasting time on somebody who does me wrong
Who didn't love me, who was fronting and using me like a pawn

Sometimes I feel unlovable, my heart's undiscoverable
Hate living in misery, my misery's insufferable
Hurt by the ones we love the most, the toughest pill to swallow
My heart used to be full, but now it's hollow

So no, you don't understand the way I feel, hmm
You don't understand how much I hate to be me
As I break down and crumble, feel so alone
My life's a struggle, nobody knows so

You don't understand how much I hate to be me
You and I try to be, held you down
Why'd you leave? (You don't understand the pain I feel)
Why'd you leave? (You don't understand the pain I feel)
Why'd you leave? (You don't understand the pain I feel)
Why'd you leave? (You don't understand the pain I feel)
Why'd you leave? (You don't understand the pain I feel)

You don't understand the pain I feel
You don't know how much I hate to be me