pastel skies

Didn't think that I would make it to this year
Now it's just another day full of tears
Load me in, my casket full of fear
I'm dying now, just knowing you're not here

Imma take the long way home, I don't know me
Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me
Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings
And I think it's you now every time my phone rings

Pastel skies I don't give a fuck
Mind so numb feeling out of touch
My demise yeah I'm out of luck
My blue eyes now I'm not good enough

Pastel skies I don't give a fuck
Mind so numb feeling out of touch
My demise yeah I'm out of luck
My blue eyes now I'm not good enough

No matter if I try, nobody seems to arrive
And when I'm shocked with fear, nobody wants to be near

So I sit in my room and I write it down
I sing my songs and I wipe my frown
I cry in bed but I don't know how
My tears are still and they won't fall down

I been so alone since the day that you left me
Never paid attention to all of the things you said to me
Now there is a hole in my chest where my heart should be
I called the doctor he said there's no recovery

Now I try to open my mind
And see what it's like to be in love again
Does she want to be in my life
Maybe I'll lie so I won't lose another friend

Don't she see she doesn't love me the way that I want her to
(That I want her to)
I can't breathe I'm gritting my teeth and holding my tongue
Cause I know that imma say I love her too

I hate that I cannot keep away from you
We both know that self destruction coming tell me it ain't true
Don't act like you don't know which path you wanna choose
And I won't act like I wanna be with you get out my head

Imma take the long way home, I don't know me
Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me
Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings
And I thinks it's you now every time my phone rings

Pastel skies I don't give a fuck
Mind so numb feeling out of touch
My demise yeah I'm out of luck
My blue eyes now I'm not good enough