Processing

I blame the church for my disorders
I know it's wrong
But I can't help how I feel
Cut to ribbons by the Order
Leave it to God
Not the parents, not the pills
The ultimate scapegoat
If He doesn't come through
Then it's a test
If I get better
God provides
But I confess
I'm just processing
Processing

Excuse me while I speak my mind
It's the only thing that gets me through the night
I'm just screaming at an empty sky
Cause noone up there cares what I say tonight
Excuse me while I speak my mind
It's the only thing that gets me through the night
I'm just screaming at an empty sky
Cause noone up there cares what I say tonight

I blame God for a lot
I guess the Scapegoat provides
Catching all of the hate
That Bearded Ghost in the sky
But the image bares weight
Of 25 years of questions I can't face
25 years of scars hidden in Grace
25 years of believing He holds my fate
I'm just processing
I'm just processing

Excuse me while I speak my mind
It's the only thing that gets me through the night
I'm just screaming at an empty sky
Cause noone up there cares what I say tonight
Excuse me while I speak my mind
It's the only thing that gets me through the night
I'm just screaming at an empty sky
Cause noone up there cares what I say tonight

I can't depend on some holy net to catch me when I fall
I'm caught up in in the tangible, seeking meaning in it all
And echoes of the pulpit seek to pull me from the call
Of a brand new perspective that doesn't use Jesus to explain it all
I'm burning down the bridges to the deity I left behind
And I'm torching all his images in this atheistic deicide
You'll find me at the canvas
Painting over all the lies
I am done with this bullshit
It's time to let myself decide
I'm just processing
I'm just processing
I'm just processing
I'm just processing
I'm just processing
I'm just processing



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Writer(s): Nathan Simmons
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