i only need therapy cuz they can't snitch

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Y'all don't know me, this shit parasocial
Activities don't feel normal
Maybe I need therapy feel horrible
Maybe I feel the pain of things very forceful
Steep chore to reach out and be vocal
Maybe I'm too weak to be less meek
And plunge instead it's real remorseful
I'm hoarse and cold
Overwhelmed yet bold
Fuck around and break your heart
I'm told this attitude isn't worth
Working with I'm bowled over
Other paths, pure sour dough
Fuck it man I gotta go
Can't afford a funeral and nobody know
When anybody getting old
They hit a loan shark after Nanny I'm told
I'm the chid that's gold
Responsibility owned

I don't need therapy I just need a friend
Someone that could give a shit
Regardless of my ends
I don't need therapy I just need a friend
Someone who can listen
Someone who can
I don't need therapy I just need a friend
I'm so fucking lonely the higher my life get
They can't relate to me no more
The higher that I soar
I'm breaking down new doors
They can't relate to me no more
They can't relate to me no more
The higher that I soar
I'll never stop oh no
They can't relate no more

Hold my breath till my face turns purple
Isolated dance around in circles
Empty my voice into the void
Small miracles getting destroyed
By the minds games and shady ploys
Maintain the facade ride the wave remain coy
anxiety kills the joy
Thursday night another session
Yeah oh boy oh boy wow
Secret text messages relentless with
The intent of protection
Mastered the art of deception
Left poison clouds that gate the heavens
See ravens with blood eyes
That crowd the skies
They telling me I'm hanging out
With the wrong guys
But none of y'all were found
When I was drunk and I was balling my eyes
Cuz my therapist is scared as shit
The way I slip and mix
These chemicals to coexist
And live with these hunted gifts
Chasing bliss while I'm packing spliffs
And drift over dark planes in my brain
Leaving the therapist with nothing to say

I don't need therapy I just need a friend
Someone that could give a shit
Regardless of my ends
I don't need therapy I just need a friend
Someone who can listen
Someone who can
I don't need therapy I just need a friend
I'm so fucking lonely the higher my life get
They can't relate to me no more
The higher that I soar
I'm breaking down new doors
They can't relate to me no more
They can't relate to me no more
The higher that I soar
I'll never stop oh no
They can't relate no more

I get why they pay for silence
Way too hard to filter through liars
People ain't self aware
So they lie to themselves
No care they die on hills
Cuz the soul impaired
Like familial bonds and community a snare
We all fucking broken millennials yeah
They lied to us all now we hopeless and wretched
Folk wiling to wreck shit
I'm focused on wrecklessness
Addicted to helplessness
Battling myself to enhance my bliss
Rotten fruit finna break through wine skins
Bad apples in my circle cuz I let them in
My ignorance still lead to sin
My vigilance why I'm still gonna win
Happiness not a fish I'm fucking with

Yeee this one was also not recorded live
At twitch.tv/behindthatsuit I know I know
I'm still plugging myself it is what it is
This that mixtape series
This that writtens first written one
Shoutout Mayor Penguin Music for the beats
Hopefully it gets more optimistic
Peace