Alone (Freestyle)

Man i'm so tired out i don't even know what to say
A review this year would probably be nothing but a shame
To my last hope, i promise i would try to keep going
But it's just show, why is it distance i keep showing
I keep pushing people away, and i don't even want that to happen
Tried to socialize, but they keep on trying to expose a
Darker side of me, where i stand in nothing but a defeat
If i was ever truly weak i wouldn't be here, but i really felt it this week
Complications with my fam, feels like no one listens to me
I traveled around just to try to make a future i could see
But ended up being in debt, where i felt nothing but a lesser worth
My net worth would never recover
If anything i did more damage to myself than any other has ever done to me
People telling me to not give up
But how can i take their advice if they're just here for the price
Of me falling apart, they don't give nothing in return
But now they wanna give a heart
They wanna give a shit about me when i can't even start?
To think about the ways they've done nothing but do me wrong
But i'll try to come out strong

Fuck being a positive person when the tables are turnin
Hit rock bottom and doing nothing now but searching
For my soul, i lost myself and no one would ever go
To check up on me once in a while
So i'm alone, but i feel pressured to just leave this earth
Because there's nothing here for me, tomorrow is something i don't see
So if you don't hear from me, don't come searching for me
Because that's what you wanted anyways
Treated me differently from everyone anyways
So don't turn your back on your ulterior motives
Just because i could be gone, in a second
If you were there man i coulda been happy
But no one felt my vibe, or ever wanted to be nice
I'm probably too clingy but that's what everyone says to cut me out of their lives
So fuck it, i'm not even gonna try anymore



Credits
Writer(s): Amir B
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