Paranoïa (Fuck Myself)

It's a night like any other
I watch my cigarette burn
To tell me how much I screw my life up
Could i take it harder than that
Could i pull the trigger
I'm not that miserable
But everything around me seems to fade
Will i be brave enough
To face it all
Have I come to a point of no return
So that I prevent myself from turning around in the street
It's hard to live with

And as long as I feel myself observing
I will continue to speed up
It's past 8 p.m. and the bus arrives
If I miss it will I stay there
Will this be the last time I watch
My sleepy mother's tired eyes
Everything looks so complicated
And everything looks so morbid
It's hard to contain yourself
That someday i could kill them all
And what is my limit
If fear has my whole body
Where can I find dignity
Where can I find security
Maybe it's my head
Or maybe it's just

The condition of my paranoia
And for you the grim reaper
I marked you on my body
To remind me how much you scare me
Am I all alone when the moon rises?
Am I all alone in the morning blizzard

I should surely fuck myself
Or certainly face them