Sanity

Long nights you could never know
Things getting reaped that you could never sow
Now, it's early in the morn and I'm all alone
Had some lessons hard learned, thought it was a joke (thought it was a joke)
And you were never fair to me (never there for me)
You were never there for me, so what you telling me? (telling me)
Now, I'm drowning in this Hennessy
Demons in my bed, but ain't nobody next to me (no)
But, how could I complain? This is our life (yeah)
Some my niggas still addicted to a block life (to a what?)
Rest in peace to one my idols, he got shot twice
Giving up, thinking bout just giving up, I just might (I just might)
I hope you 'preciate my being here (I hope you do)
I'd rather die without a care than choose to live in fear
Cuz I don't see no living here (not at all, no)
You here today and then you disappear

So can you please let me know something (let me know)
Why all the young niggas out here tryna blow something (why they tryna blow?)
What's understood ain't gotta be said, but now I'm on one
It's hot in California, we the product of a strong sun (yeah)
They killed his brother and he doubled back (and he doubled back)
One decision and the murder rate he doubled that (and he doubled that)
I ain't glorifying nothing, I'm just stating facts (fact tho)
But you know how they hate on that (for real)
I wonder where he learned the talk (where at?)
They were riding on his hood before he learned to walk ('fore he learned to walk)
First, you boxing, then you popping, then you lined in chalk
(Oh)

It's a cold game (cold game)
Stay up out the way, you wanna maintain (wanna maintain)
Nah, this ain't a I-5 ride, you can't change lanes
You can lose your mind just trying to remain sane (remain sane)
But I remain sane