Special

I'm not special
Who the hell am I to think I'm special?
I'm not so well (thanks for asking)
But you probably figured, "What else is new?"

I try my best still
But I find I wind up in some mess
You'll keep my head filled
With the notion that I don't deserve this life that I've built

I'm not special, special
Don't know why I thought I could be someone
I'm no one
To anyone who knows me, I'm a burden
I'm certain the only thing I'm good for is hurtin' the ones I love

I wanna be special
But I don't know if it's worth all of this stress
You don't know my struggle 'cause I don't tell it
If I did, I really don't think you'd be bothered to hear it anyway

If I sang a song, would you listen?
Or would you tell me that I'm terrible? (Tell me that I'm terrible)
If I played along to ease the friction
Would you still tell me that I'm terrible? (Tell me that I'm terrible)

Oh, I'm not special, special
Don't know why I thought I could be someone
I'm no one
To anyone who knows me, I'm a burden
I'm certain the only thing I'm good for is hurtin' the ones I love

But the ones I love, they really love me
The ones I love, they truly know me
You drag my name, it's kinda funny
'Cause my name makes you lots of money

I guess I'm special, special
Who the hell are you to say I'm not special?
Oh well, got everybody talking in this hellhole
I'm the devil, Dante wrote me into his inferno
Here we go, again

Is this what you came for? You paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them and listen
To all the ugly things you tell me I am

I'm tryin' so hard to understand how I'm the master manipulator
Who couldn't fool anyone
The monster, reciprocator shot no bullets from my gun
The drama queen who never seems to get applause from anyone
I won't be who you say I am

If I sang a song, would you listen?
Or would you tell me that I'm terrible?
I won't play along, this game is twisted
And I think that would make me terrible
That would make me-



Credits
Writer(s): Gabrielle Hanna
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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