Paper Cup

Thinking way too much
Can't even fill a paper cup
I can't make these things up
I swear I've had enough, you know

I'm stuck in the box
I've put myself in too long
I'm turning around
But I still find myself in the ground

Said you'd let me out
But seems I've been here for some time
Don't get the things you say
The way you operate, no

I guess you should go
'Cause you openly just stay on my brain
So, it's not the time for you to leave
I don't ever want you next to me

I find
It's getting to harder to believe
That things change
The more you try and see
I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
I wasn't fine
With you living inside me

Still don't understand
Why I can't seem to make a change
I need to get back out
And live my life, and anyway

I'm blessed to hold up
I'm just trying to fill this paper cup
I know I'm a mess
Everyday I seem to cause me stress

It's time to make a new start
So I can fill a paper cup
I want to pour my heart
I wanna tell it to the stars
I wanna glow with fire, so I can leave it all behind

I find
It's getting to harder to believe
That things change
The more you try and see
I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
I wasn't fine
With you living inside me

I find
It's getting to harder to believe
That things change
The more you try and see
I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
I wasn't fine
With you living inside me