Nerves

There's a fan blade passing up overhead
There's a cat tail stiffening on the edge of the bed
Got the shades all closed, one eye open
Phone off the hook but no ones calling yet

Can't figure out if I'm loved or lost
Can't think about everyone I've crossed
Did she go out for a walk or security?
Are the next screaming sirens coming for me?
Dragnet

Today I went bad, tomorrow I'll pay
I'm not the innocent victim I was yesterday
Falling into things good and bad
Now all I have and what I deserve are nerves

I'm now suspect of every squeaking step
Every door ajar, every stationed person
Every passing car
To the cinder burning deep inside
I've been called honest but I live the lie of lies

All day long I'm on the run
I wake each morning like a loaded gun
The sounds of dawn never sounded like this before
That's not the chirping of morning birds
That's not the bells from the old town church
It's nerves, nerves, nerves

In an outlaw's clothes it was all romance
I wasn't taking money, I was taking a chance
Then I went and turned professional
Got a pretty new baby, got the pretty suburbs
And nerves, nerves, nerves
Yeah, nerves, nerves, nerves

I've sworn to yes-men and puppets, to thee I serve
One day I'll refuse them
One day when I have the nerve

One day I'll be straight instead of crooked and curved
One day I'll feel good instead of this hurt
I've got to lose this monkey, got to lose my shirt
I've got to talk to somebody and hear the worst

There's a fan blade passing up overhead
There's a cat tail stiffening on the edge of the bed
This was my confession, given in these words
Maybe to save my soul or just to soothe my nerves

Nerves, nerves, nerves
Yeah, nerves, nerves, nerves
Nerves, nerves, nerves