life away

I used to call you while eating Forest Hills Bagels
All love all vibes no toxicity and labels
Had some difficult habits that I tended to ignore
Cause I had a whole world out there I needed to explore

Half of my dictionary the language we created
You helped me smile you made me motivated
In New York you helped me pick out my Converse
But a few months ago it took a turn for the worse

I know that you're probably not listening
What happened to the old you she was glistening
We was calling for 9 hours now it's hard to get through one
Got no respect for you today but damn we had some fun

I ain't praying on your downfall I'm praying on your rise
Cause I see something in you a good person in disguise
But I'm curious as to how I'm wrong I wanna hear your side
Cause everything could've been avoided without your pride

And you don't even know how much I cried
I couldn't breathe over stupid shit you pulled every night
You made me wanna die contemplating -
So I think I deserve to be treated right

You said that if I left you'd be depressed
But you're living the life while I'm sitting here stressed
I'm praying that you somehow play this song
And when you play this song I hope you hate this song

I'm not here anymore watch you throw your life away
Watch you drink your life away watch you smoke your life away
All your opps relapsing and y'all going back to besties
But I'm popping off without you even if I feel empty
I've been finding happiness like Dory was finding Nemo
I had to let you go I don't rock with the emo
Cause you keep saying everybody tied for first place
Then you ask one to ask the other when is their birthday
Talked to your friend she said you loved me
But you keep acting like you above me
Everybody trying to curve me
I'll tell you y'all do not deserve me
My intention ain't to expose you
It's just to educate you as someone who knows you
I'd like some closure but with or without it I'm fine
But the point is don't crush someone's spirit like you did to mine?
Insensitive think about your actions and they effects
Nobody besides God perfect we've all got defects
I told you you were perfect for a year well guess what you ain't
Why should I kiss your ass when all you bring me is pain
Wasted potential cause you couldn't grow up
Every day a new excuse as to why you can't show up
Don't tell me it's not personal cause that'd make you a liar
Cause a two way street is all I ever desired

Boys don't cry does that make me a real man
Cause I know for a fact you don't care how I feel man
Told me nobody would take me for me I'm not manly
But I'm good enough and I didn't stutter like Stanley
Met yesterday and we couldn't make eye contact
And we had a big fight I told you to work on that
That was Saturday on Monday you were back to your impure self
I hope you hear this song and hate yourself