Duckworth

First off I think I'm a duck worth
I think I'm a big nerd
I think that I'm absurd
Strange fact
Had problems with my self-worth
Solutions in these words
Music is my chaser
Music is my savior
Trying to bring my brain back
Trying to push my pain back
Intact
You can hear as they collapse
Written sadness in these raps
All of us are human-like that
Oh man
Why I got to be a human-like that

The start of a neon genesis
I know that I am venomous
About to go and rise again
But I know that I try my best
I feel like that I am hell sent
Nice but I have my extents
A mad hatter
Black hatter
Slow climb yet still will ascent
A beast that will never be tamed
Enslaved by the thoughts in my brain
I must entertain
I must write a passage of pain
To prove to the world that I have gone insane
I like to drown in the tawny rain
The warmth of the rivers hugs me every day
If I could choose my safe place
In a car that is parked in the dark music playing
I like analyzing wordplay
The words that we use to say I'm not okay
Let's scratch at the scab every day just for the money and just for the fame

I've written some story so frightful
Brought fear to the devil the one straight from the Bible
My mind's full
But yet still can't cry though
I tried though
I wish I was high bro
I don't want to be like other g's
I don't want to be like other kings
I want to be me
I want to achieve many things
Want to be the last one standing

But sometimes we are frightful
Sometimes we are spiteful
Sometimes we are angry
And sometimes we are delightful
Wisdom is my high though
Messed up many times
I choose to apologize to many people in my life
And I hope you're doing fine
I've been writing all these rhymes
I've used it as medicine to help me get through all these times
Had a couple people say that my lines are divine
Intertwined to a noose that is hung up my mind
But I'm stuck thinking 3D
The problem beneath me
Is now just a shadow
A demon I'm feeding
The broken
The beaten
Songbird that is pleading
To give him a moment to speak out his feelings
To say what he's thinking
I
Feel like overdosing
Listen to albums
The artist and motion
The part that they're playing
The person whose story
We listen to as we drive in our Ford focus
Who
Is it I wanna be
Conjure up the brand new idea of me
I am this persona
You are this persona
He is this persona
She is this persona
They are this person
Try to be a loner
Grab my words and hold them
I'm an oxymoron
Unfold all my feeling
Don't know if I want then
They say to be me
But the me that I see
Is a me that I wouldn't wanna ever really meet
It's hard to perceive
All the things that I need
So I can grow and become a better human being
Let him live
Let him lie
Let him try your thousand times
Let him die
Let him revive
Let him laugh it off this time
Leave him with the lonely feeling that he couldn't have been the one
But we all know just how the story goes he never is enough
He's been digging up his grave to the point that it's too steep
That he cannot ever escape he stuck with all the dirt beneath
Another corpse amongst the worms just as the worms will scream let's feast
So what's the point of being sad
What's the point anything
I was Captain pessimistic leaving chaos on his path
The only vital signs I had was beats per minute of my raps
I'm not perfect
In not special
Giving everything I have
But this is not my final form
So what's the point in holding back