As Promised

I guess you show how little I know
When I'm thinking that we close
But I've been sinkin the boat
Built a kingdom of my own
So I can sit in the throne
I should of drowned you in the moat
But you been thinking I won't

I wonder why I chose the path that I did
Just a promise that I made
beforeI happened to live
Just a soul up in the stars
Trying to cash it all in
You see me making all these plans
But God laugh at his kids

That's why I mastered my craft
'Cause they tell you life a bitch
Until you ask her to dance
Made a milli off the game
I never had in advance
Made the impossible happen
So I can pass on the chance

On my turns I rose up
When they praise words
A black rose where the ash grow
I stayed firm
I'm unaffected by the lack of credit
I've been the best who would've
Said it if I hadn't said it
Get the message

Is it me am I smug to agree
So much hate in my heart
Where's the love that I need
Why am I running from the things
That I should love the most
What's here today is gone tomorrow
So you should hold it close

It's easy said and harder done
I'm trying to soak up in this evening sun
Breathing through these hardened lungs
It's like the end has just begun
Easy go easy come
Trust me though I'm not the one
I'm not the poet the preacher would have appointed
I come from the sin my skin burn if anointed
I find it pointless that's why we suffer for solace
Everyone come up short and argue 'bout who the tallest
So let's be honest we all stuck here regardless
So ima give you the truth
The whole truth
As promised