Time Alone

Certain days im feeling cursed
Hate the feeling cuz it hurts
Tend to stay away from love
Cuz it never seems to work
And i shy away from drugs
Cuz they only make it worse
All my problems in a song
Put my feelings in a verse
Other days im feeings blessed
But i know that im a mess
Always feeling like im less
I'm a man i can confess
Lord just put me to the test
I can pick up all the stress
Living life with no regrets
Cuz i know that im up next

And I dont gotta fit in
Cuz im locked the fuck in
And she gone in the wind
I was wrong in the end
So I grabbed me a pen
Started rapping again

You cant walk inside my shoes unless you wear a size ten
How you want me now but you ain't even want me then
Tried to hold you down but you ain't even let me in
Wanted you forever
But we better off as friends
Knew that i was different
But you'd rather be a trend
Damn

But you'd rather be a trend
Close that back door I cant get snaked again
Shoulda' left yo' ass alone
I shouldn't uh let you in
I be back and forth with demons
But i never win

I've accepted all my flaws
But the worst one of them all
I got anger issues
I get mad start bouncing off the walls
Introverted reason why im always declining them calls
And im hurtin' reason i dont let them feelings get involved

Lord knows that i ain't perfect
But i promise that im worth it
I been working on myself
I manifest it and i earn it
Had to substitute the days where i was feeing like a burden
Had to get rid of my past cuz them feelings was uncertain

Know my grandma would be proud
I can't let my family down
Wasn't focused on it then
Guess im focused on it now
Think my patience running thin
Always bottling it in
They dont wanna see me win
Only six feet in the end

I'm addicted to myself
And thats just another down fall
Hate to be around yall
Try to block the sound off
Looking in the mirror me and I just had a stand off
Bite the hand that feeds
And you just went and took my hand off