Misery

I let you get the best of me
But you'll never have the recipe
Now I cut you off
You can't have the rest of me
But you keep on tested me
Until I snap and make you feel my misery

My demons lie inside
The pains to much to hide
Peace is all I wanna find
But maybe they all lied
No one's really by my side
I'm not letting you slide
Your just a thought inside
It's about time you died
The last time you ever lied
Get the hell out of my mind
I try to live a good life
But my demons stab me with a knife
When will you realize
I'm not tryna victimize, I just wanna fix these lies

Yeah I let you get the best of me
But you'll never have the recipe
Now I cut you off
You can't have the rest of me
But you keep on tested me
Until I snap and make you feel my misery

I'm just gonna lie to myself
And not act as I'm actually dying in hell
Cause it's been so long that I felt
That I didn't realize you broke my walls until you left
I know I'm always in my head
And acting depressed
And upset
Chemical imbalance
Ain't even nowhere to begin
Faking everything just to be okay
I think your mistaken
I'm about to break
Why the fuck am I'm still awake
I think im addicted to feeling like shit

Yeah I let you get the best of me
But you'll never have the recipe
Now I cut you off
You can't have the rest of me
But you keep on tested me
Until I snap and make you feel my misery

I'm stressing myself out with all these lies
Until I'm bent out in anger
And my conscious has one hell of a twist
I'm done pretending
Tired of acting like this is a picnic
When it isn't
And every now and again I feel different
Feels like I'm laying here in a coffin
I must be going crazy cause I feel it often
Even when I can't blame myself
All I do is blame myself
And as soon as I see it changing
My head starts to race again
Even when I am deep in sleep dreaming of the pain in me

Yeah I let you get the best of me
But you'll never have the recipe
Now I cut you off
You can't have the rest of me
But you keep on tested me
Until I snap and make you feel my misery