Repression

So here's a miniscule tale I could tell
About how highschool life became a living hell
You'd think I'm Riley Reid way I kept getting railed
My karma doubled up you can put it in scales
Bonds with family that has came to a fail
Me and my father don't bother trying this tie became stale
I became a marauder who's mind imprisoned in jail
Deadbeat like Gribble no Dale
Conflicts in the house you can hear it from miles
Divorce hit us in the face you can see in the files
Had to pick up the pieces I carried the tiles
Tajh has left the building ain't returned for a while
Then there's heartbreak serve that bitch on a platter
Was a power hungry shorty climbing the ladder
Fifty likes in ten seconds I ain't think that it mattered
She left her panties out for anyone who fucked her after
Gets deeper than that
Caught her lackin with my squad droppin meat in the cat
Was up in the function in the cars I found all the facts
Maybe a theory but my research got me like Pat
Lost more after that
My day ones left as if they was the cat in the hat
Swore to stay by my side yet they was wearing the cap
The old me wouldn't applaud but they would get the clap
Ever since I went and changed I forgot I could nap
Cuz I refuse to regress and revert way back
To waking up unloved self inflicted attacks
Back when my ego became hungry for awards and the plaques
Bossed up got me a catalina
On my toes elegant like I'm a ballerina
Awkward belcher just like I am Tina
Razor sharp finish then like I am Mileena
Where my sanity ask have you see her
King of the islands must be a lemur
Escape to my world yes I am a dreamer
Discombobulated elongated like a femur
So put on a smile so the crowd don't know
Keep your feelings deep inside knowing it will grow
To keep from crying I laugh it just goes to show
Cycle back my vulnerability from all of my bros
Real question why I am still alive
What kind of sources to the human world can I provide
Got the power in my hands cause I can divide
But I chose to stay for people that I plan to align
Can't put my ego aside
Cuz if they play me once again I may not be alive
Napier in my mental I might be dead inside
Tis was the time was my lowest and I cannot deny