Run Away

I came into this world
I wanted to make a difference
I was inconsistent
Insistent but not persistent
Resistant to the changes I had once demanded
And that Resistance gave me strength when I was feeling stranded
Plus Assistance came in all forms, shapes, and fashions
But I could not imagine any as my saving chances
Cause I was craving dances
On my laps by exotic dancers
Chasing romances
That proved to be psychotic cancers
That killed my psyche
Just knowing that no one was like me
Showing the world what it might be like if we keep on following blindly
My disappearance was timely
While you're looking you couldn't find me
I promised I'd keep it lively
And You promised not to despise me
But promises tend to get broken
And months have passed since we've spoken
Your final thoughts while your choking
If I would bathe in the blood that your soaked in
The door was open
It wasn't me that walked through it
What was thought provoking though
Was what if I never knew it

I heard them say
That they needed me
But I wouldn't stay
No, I'd just run away

I've heard them pray
After they'd plead with me
But I'd find a way
Yup To just run away

You'd couldn't of told me
Matter of fact I wouldn't of listened
Cause They were screaming slowly
Hurry up get in position
And my purpose solely
Was to carry on the mission
Well fuck if only
I had stopped to pay attention
I woulda seen they sold me a dream
Envisioned a team so full of steam
When your caught in between
A horrible scene
Was sure to be seen
By any means
I'm caught in between
Wanting these things
And wanting to bring a positive swing
To combat the sting of the thoughts that cling
On to my heart about losing my brothers
Embarrass the mother of my own kid
Cause when I slid I took on a lover
And making her suffer
Caused me to suffer
Cuz That's when she finally saw
She looked at her ma and her pa
It was the very last straw
That's when she noticed the flaw
That we never had faith in each other
I was Quick on the draw to make the guns stutter
But slow to react when their bodies would shudder
I came from the gutter
So when the bodies hit the ground
Might as well be raining men cause they dropped when thunder sounds
Going rounds while spitting rounds made it hard to come around

I heard them say
That they needed me
But I wouldn't stay
No, I'd just run away

I've heard them pray
After they'd plead with me
But I'd find a way
Yup To just run away

Outta all the chances
That I had to change my glances
Rearrange what the plan is to secure a new advancement
None were left abandoned
Some started then left stranded
But every stone was turned in the search of getting branded
But my brothers have disbanded
On this journey through life
To keep it candid I kept going and I didn't think twice
When you live amongst the damned all the news is just strife
What's a village to your clan
And what's the clan to Your wife
It don't mean nothing
If your word is your bond
Then when you're bluffing
It means your adhesive ain't strong
Y'all must be bugging
I don't say shit I don't mean
Stranger or cousin
Either can take one to the spleen
Stop all the fussing most of you just speak to spread lies
Begging for trust and quick to keep a hidden disguise
Thinking it's just
To shake hands and spit in they eyes
But turn to rust cause of all the tears that they've cried

I heard them say
That they needed me
But I wouldn't stay
No, I'd just run away

I've heard them pray
After they'd plead with me
But I'd find a way
Yup To just run away

I heard them say
That they needed me
But I wouldn't stay
No, I'd just run away

I've heard them pray
After they'd plead with me
But I'd find a way
Yup To just run away