December's Very Own

Been a long time, still yesterday
Still last week, still our first date
Still our first day, look in my eyes
Hands locked in, yet tongue tied
Maybe, I'm still out here living a lie
Or maybe, I'm the lie?
Oh, what a surprise, stuck in my mind
Can't open the gate
Don't matter if you try, can't stop your fate

Can't stop the timing of what ain't timed
Can't cherish a moment with just one side
Can't tell a story from just one angle
Can't tell the truth if you just tell fables and lies, you faker
Look in your eyes, a traitor
I never thought it'd come to this
My love burned out, yet you blow a kiss

I wish you could go back to who you used to be
December's very own queen
But like a whisper in the night
I heard you once, I heard you twice
I wish I could still hear your voice

Another day gone, my hope gone
17 missed calls, what went wrong?
Last night, I was begging just to hear your voice
But today, your voice is already the noise in my head that just tells me that the cycles breakin'
And your heart is breakin', gotta stop it
If I just avoid every urge telling me to just quit
Maybe, I'll find out what it is, gotta fix this
I'll get up, run away from a shade of you
No let up, can't leave it to a flip of a coin
Hear the call of the void, gotta end this
But yet my love is endless, selfless

I wish you could go back to who you used to be
December's very own queen
But like a whisper in the night
I heard you once, I heard you twice
I wish I could still hear your voice

Why do I do this for love?
Why when I try, it gives up?
Why when I say that I can't, it just run's in my arms? Now a scar's on my heart
See, now I'm just trying for better
Sometimes, when I turn, I write letters
While facing my past, I relapse and I tell it the stories where pain would just enter

So, now I'm just trying my best
Tryna work through all the stress
If I just listened, I wouldn't be here in this mess
Heart aching, a signal, distress
Now I'm, doing my best to not drown
Fighting for air, but I fight, never down
Looking for reasons to fight
It's just me, so I do it for me, never stay on the ground, but I

I wish you could go back to who you used to be (Back to who you used to be)
December's very own queen
But like a whisper in the night
I heard you once, I heard you twice (Like a whisper in the night)
I wish I could still hear your voice

(Your voice, your voice)
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, woah-oh)