Pedestal

It's been three years and counting
And it kills me that I'll never understand
Why I put you above everyone else
You held so much power
And it kills me that you never had to try
My attention, my contentment, was wrapped around your finger tips

It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear
Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me

I put you so high on my pedestal
But you burned that shit down
With the matches you stole
I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love
You held me as I fell apart
But now you're the reason I am scarred
I never want to see you
I wish I never loved you

I think these past years have gotten to your head
When I'm around you now I would rather be dead
But at one point you were the reason I wanted to live
You wanted nothing to do with me
But I truly believed you'd make me happy
Oh, how you made me blind to reality

It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear
Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me

I put you so high on my pedestal
But you burned that shit down
With the matches you stole
I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love
You held me as I fell apart
But now you're the reason I am scarred
I never want to see you
I wish I never loved you

You, you were my everything
The reason that I smiled
The reason that I lived
All of my friends knew your name
The amount of time I spoke of you I drove them all insane
Tell me
Was it all a lie?
When you held my head against your chest
And told me not to cry
Now, I am growing up
You are nothing but a conceded man that I used to love

I put you so high on my pedestal
But you burned that shit down
With the matches you stole
I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love
You held me as I fell apart
But now you're the reason I am scarred
I never want to see you
I wish I never loved you



Credits
Writer(s): Hannah Byers
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