Zero Dark Thirty Four

Call the suicide hotline but the signal say busy
Need to work on myself but I been too busy
Tried to pray to God he said I'll hit you right back I'm too busy
Zero dark thirty four on my clock mind too busy
Numerology
Call the suicide hotline but the signal say busy
Of seeing the same numbers
Need to work on myself but I been too busy
Steady looking at the time
Tried to pray to God he said I'll hit you right back I'm too busy
Can't ignore the signs
Zero dark thirty four on my clock mind too busy

Yea, yea 12:34 so repetitive to see
And I been out working every competitor but peep
It seems like I been working on everything but me
Been in my head a bit rest assured but ain't getting any sleep
For everybody you're here but self neglect is what you bring
My fucking health is something else I'm a special kind of breed
If I cut my self it'll take me 20 seconds just to bleed
Meaning I'm slow just to notice cause depression isn't seen
Maybe if we took time like a theft of someone's G shock-ing ain't it?
I been making an effort just to keep-
Clocking making these dollars cause my death ain't even free
I been dancing with the devil two stepping to the beat
Since back in oh seven in the Chevy the caprice
Yea they talk that belly shit but we the belly of the beast
Like an over sized load bitch I'm heavy in the streets
Strange chain, roley yea the presidential piece
My music made it to the fucking president to peep
Devil in my shop of horrors I ain't selling you a thing
Rather juug a nightmare than to sell a fucking dream
Cause I'm everybody's meds but who's medicating me?
Rhetorical question like that's your hood? Or residential street
Used to the back burner like a weapon on the string
That's why I'm walking through hell like it's 70 degrees

Fuck all that misery loving the company: let a nigga be
Cause the shit it be killing me feel like I wanna be exponentially
Up been taking a bottle of pills and I gotta be
Making out of a killer psychology
Will I get better I'm thinking Im honoring- every single thing
But me
Ever since a teen work hard been imbedded into me
That's why I never get to sleep
The feeling that's killing me really
You never get to see
Cause I'm too busy - listen to the tele' as it rings like

Call the suicide hotline but the signal say busy
Need to work on myself but I been too busy
Tried to pray to God he said I'll hit you right back I'm too busy
Zero dark thirty four on my clock mind too busy
(Somebody pick up the phone yea, I don't wanna be alone)
Call the suicide hotline but the signal say busy
(Work my fingers to the bone,
Ain't taking care of myself but I'm strong yea)
Need to work on myself but I been too busy
(Tell God I'm finna come home yea, devil got me out my zone yea)
Tried to pray to God he said I'll hit you right back I'm too busy
(Follow the signs I'm shown yea, 12:34 that's the code yea)
Zero dark thirty four on my clock mind too busy

Need to just work on myself right now aye
Too busy going through hell right now aye
Somebody check on Tarrel right now aye
Call he won't answer his cell right now aye
I got a number of things that I'm working on
But disconnected from self right now aye
Fuck thinking bout record sales right now aye
Trying not to kill myself right now aye
Funny all this money that I made by myself
Even fame, but won't take a single day to myself
People coming for a favor while I'm hanging myself
Mom and step father was beefing while I'm raising myself
Baby momma drama while I'm playing Dalai Lama
Take my babies yea I'm gonna fucking raise em myself
Where were you when I was in the ward or stayed in my cell
I don't trust a single fucking soul and stay to myself
Every single case I fought the state by myself
And the Board Of Mental health when they played with my health
Hoes used to kick me out, I got a place by myself
Almost died in that cell but got saved by the bell
Rather carried by 6 than be hanged by the 12
Bitch Im 6 12 6 in my brain I excelled
All this pain that I held and contained in myself
Now I'm with the Snake and Bat flying straight outta hell nigga
Tarrel, no Davis in the gym the thirty close
Young niggas what the hell you acting thirty fo?
Live ya life and take care of it early bro
And sis because before you know it you'll be thirty yo
Social standards you're too busy working on
Too busy for your calling can hurt you though
I can't talk I'm suicidal like Percival
So if I hang up don't it personal