Home

So ready to leave
That I rushed my goodbyes
As the latch clicked shut
You were out of my mind
Pretty sure you stood at the window
Till I disappeared from sight

I walked with the swagger of
Unfounded pride
In the ignorant bliss of
My own charmed life
I could feel the city hum
There was nothing I wouldn't try

The dizzying rush
I can barely remember
The extravagant life
And performative laughter
The company of friends
Who all ran out on me in the end

My easy life it disappeared too
I tried to tread water
Then i tried to resurface
But I knew I was lost
The sunlight glittered maddeningly
Far from my grasp

I woke from this nightmare
With the cold hard truth
That I'd taken my share
And blown right through it all
Far beyond what I could recoup

I thought of you then
I know that that's bad
Even a generous heart would question
the motives I had
You had every right to be mad

There were days when the journey was one long grind
I was injured and sickened and footsore and tired
In doubt I turned around
And sat, with an aching heart on the ground

I came so close
To letting shame lay me low
But at the end of the day
Where else could I go
You were the only one
Who might care if I lived or died

Wasn't sure if you'd know me
But you gave me no time to explain
You held me
Despite the reek of my weeks old clothes
And the dust of my travels
My excuses unraveled
And I knew
What I had refused for so long
That however winding my path
However far I would go
You were always my home
You were always my home