Boyhood

So tired of saying I'm sorry
I wanna die with a story
I wanna feel alive
I wanna see the light
I don't wanna fight
No, I do not wanna fight
No, I'm not ready to die
No, I'm not ready to die

Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?

Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?

I wish life had an undo button, wish I knew my father
The more I live my life, the more I realise I'm like him
I never knew him much besides an alcoholic addict
And that's the shit that scares me, and that's the shit I carry

I wish I knew affection that came from a father figure
I wish I wasn't so afraid to tell her that I love her
I hurt the hearts that came to me, I take and never give
And for all the pain that I inflicted, I cannot forgive

I never knew confessions, take it all, make it a lesson
(Never learn, let it burn)
Contentment in my wrecking
A lot of maybes, lotta ifs and hows and whys
I asked my mama why she crying, she said, "Boy, that's life"

You gotta be prepared, just know your truth and never lie
I look at me right now and wish I heeded her advice
I took the pussy route, I took the easy way out
You ain't no boy no more lil' boy, you gotta figure it out

If I had my way
To do it all over again
Would it turn out the same?
If I'd lost my way
Would you still take me in?
I'll take a chance for a change

Done with my head
Done with my heart
Now I'm just letting my soul speak
Skull to the floor
Talking to God
'Cause I do not know if I know me

And I do not know if I know what I want
Every step that I take, I'm still feeling depressed
Stuck inside of a prison, repeating the cycle of asking, "What's next?"

But out of depression came rhyming
And out of the rhyming came pressure
And out of the pressure came timing
And out of the timing came lessons
And out of the lessons came finding

And out of the finding came questions
And out of the questions came answers
And out of the answers came healing, forgiveness and understanding
That depression and rhyming and questions and pressure and timing
All led to a diamond

So tired of saying I'm sorry
I wanna die with a story
I wanna feel alive
I wanna see the light
I don't wanna fight
No, I do not wanna fight
No, I'm not ready to die
No, I'm not ready to die

Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?
Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire? (Would you)

Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?

So tired of saying I'm sorry
I wanna die with a story
I wanna feel alive
I wanna see the light
I don't wanna fight
No, I do not wanna fight
No, I'm not ready to die
No, I'm not ready to die