Do It For Them

Okay I never had an exit plan or plan b
can't see I was meant to stand
Or stampede plant seeds for my next advance
and i'ma rise anytime that you test the man
Man I was really in a down bad space
Damn if u feel me u been round that place
Been so long that when I count back days
It's hard to remember livin' without that faith
Had to cut ties with the people in my way
to let the sun shine need it beaming on my face
I was confined to the demons in my cage so
Here's a one time to the reason that I changed
Change in my pocket man that's all that it took
to hike a mile to the studio and hop on a hook
I know ya see me now but you never wanted to look
and it ain't over homie this only the start of my book
If I had to go through it I would do it again
as a reminder ima die livin' true to the pen
My sight didn't always have a beautiful lens
Turned 19 started losin' my friends
A couple on the block and a few threw in the pen
A couple over rock and a few to the syringe
So if I got a shot no I'll never lose it again
Until I'm on top homie ima do it for them
I'm in a mood with these air pods glued to my head
We never had a fair shot who could object
This really all I got couldn't do the pretend
So you can see why I don't got shit to do wit a trend
tread hard been scarred through these life events
Tough to move on but I'm built for this
Friends gone head strong but my mind is tense
I been stuck for too long but I'm still equipped
My pain need to be nursed emotional blood bath
but I been much worse I know I can jump back
Used to being hurt like gettin' my leg smashed
It's a gift and a curse to live as an empath
This world been everything except for stead fast
But what I wouldn't do to get all of my friends back
I'll never forget what my man Nick said last
Keep doing ya thang bro I know that you gon' get past
We was smokin' the Marlboro menthols
Man if it was me all I'd want is a fresh start
Even deeper where I dug discover my next flaw
How come all the drugs ain't what we were kept off
Overwhelmed by the fear and then we gave up
Clear that it could change us
Spiritually bankrupt
Tearing up my face cuz
I still don't got a grave dug
Lucky to be livin' its a miracle I came up
If I had to go through it I would do it again
as a reminder ima die livin' true to the pen
My sight didn't always have a beautiful lens
Turned 19 started losin' my friends
A couple on the block and a few threw in the pen
A couple over rock and a few to the syringe
So if I got a shot no I'll never lose it again
Until I'm on top homie ima do it for them