Difference

It's about 3 am and I was thinking bout it
And trust it's not that I can't live without you
Lately shit's been so different
And it's not that I can't have fun without you
I just wish everything changed back to better
In my life and things I can't keep together
Feeling lower than before but it's just whatever
The goal is to stay strong and to just forget it
But
Took me long to realize that
Wish I did different shit but nevermind that
Could've brought the best out but I sat back
And ran away from my problems now I'm in a trance
But
I always try to act the same ways but so many motherfuckers asking how did I change
And you can tell in my eyes that nothing is the same
So what can I do If I'm the only one to blame

It's like everytime we get along together
Emotions play in and I just forget it
So I cry all night and see no change it's to the point where I wish I could just reset it
Cause these days don't feel like what they used to be
Everything changes so suddenly
Now everything isn't what it's supposed to be
Unhappiness is all I can find in me
But
Let me tell you one thing
It's not what you think a love story I'm not playing
It's not where I'm gonna tell you that I love and I miss you everyday cause look girl I'm just saying
No doubt in my mind that shit changed
Whether it's good for the difference or it's just pain
See the days being sunny but I feel rain
I don't have anymore to even explain
But
I don't even care anymore
Been almost a year and she won't even try anymore
Learned later I was there cause at the time she was bored
She with different motherfuckers ain't no different from before but
What can I say these days
The pain is the pleasure for these bitches these days and you can tell in my eyes that nothing is the same
So what can I do if I'm the only one to blame