The Next Sunny Saturday

You
You don't even know me
Don't hear me when I call your name into the sky
When it's 5 am and no one's outside
If you knew
I had to stop myself from saying sorry for the 18th time today
Would you stop the jokes
The punchline is my name
I pursued you like a puppy
'Til my skies turned grey
Promised that I was okay
I'd get a break from the pain
By the next sunny Saturday

You couldn't read my mind but
I felt myself capsize
And the damage was implied
I know you weren't blind but
You never looked over
So you never read my eyes

I wished
Upon the stars that tumbled on me
That out the corner of my eye I'd catch you looking my way
And at the front of your mind you'd see my face
I missed
The locked-eye glances once I
Acted like a child and cursed myself away
Glued onto my tongue forever is your name
And I looked for all the answers in the mess I made
In my 13th ways
But I loved it in the worst way
Addicted to the heartache

You couldn't read my mind but
I felt myself capsize
And the damage was implied
I know you weren't blind but
You never looked over
So you never read my eyes

I'll keep on wishing for
The beginning of
The necessary end
9 hundred reasons
To leave it
To hear my heart again
Held up a captive
Of the madness
And the energy I spend
Restlessly grieving
The feeling
That I'll never have again

Couldn't read my mind
But you watched me capsize
I went missing overnight
You didn't realize it
But you shut me in a locket
Suffocated me and my
Sunny Saturday
The day that never came