Lose Control

I told you that I know that
My life ain't even started, but I'd still push "reset"
Jumping in the deep end's
Not hard as long as you'll make it to the surface (whoo)
Then I'll be in danger, I can't trust myself, I
Trusted people that, soon after, stabbed me in the back (ah)
My wife is a stranger I still haven't met, I
May never get to find her for decisions I've made, but

I lose control (oh-ooh-oh)
Of the things that I say when I'm all alone (I-ah-ah)
Ran out of tears when walked in that door to stay (oh-oh-oh-oh)
Who's going to be a phone call away?

I remember saying, time ago
That my life would have a meaning, that's what I'm working on
I wanna fly back and forth
If you ain't got a goal, then what are you living for? (whoo)
I'll still be in danger, I can't trust myself, I
Trusted people, maybe, they could've had my back (ah)
My wife is a stranger I met in September
I just don't know which year, but future makes me too anxious so

I lose control (I lose control)
Of the things that I say when I'm all alone (I'm all alone)
Ran out of tears when walked in that door to stay (oh-oh-oh-oh)
Who's going to be a phone call away?

And a hint of sadness
Always makes my off days just a little happier
A sweet dream often turns into a nightmare, I pray
To God that he can bless me anyway

I lost my faith in you (I lost it)
And tried to have it back, the devil was with me (the devil)
In the darkest times, fool, where the hell were you?
I was praying on my knees

I lose control
Of the things that I say when I'm all alone (I'm all alone)
Ran out of tears when walked in that door to stay (that door, baby)
Who's going to be a phone call away?