Ten Thousand Trials

Knew I couldn't stay, I deserted the past
But I can hear your voice still as I'm turning my back
I don't want you but I need you and it's hurting me bad
Constant lack of emotion, nothing burning but ash
Was learning to rap, you inspired me to it
Said I'm going to be the best, and I'm dying to prove it
Since a child been writing my life into music
Still afraid but feel safe if you're guiding me through it
Everything will be fine
We live under street light
Doing what we want to
Drinking 'til our weekdays
Turn into our weeknights
Like we want to get gone soon
Ten thousand hours of letting go
Mastering the art of getting old

But did you know that I still hear you sing
Sometimes when I'm sleeping
And even though it feels like waking up
I'm still dreaming, dreaming
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
I'm facing this alone, alone, alone
Oh, Lord
Oh, Lord

Knew I couldn't stay, I had to leave you love
Walk alone into the future we were dreaming of
Got tired of life and didn't think I could keep it up
Maybe the melodies drain out if I bleed enough
Preceded by none, a new level of music
Forever all I've got, too feeble to lose it
Ain't afraid of the fables, staying elusive
Harnessing pain, it's great if you're able to use it
There will be no next time
Already been bled dry
Nothing more to give you
Put me to rest I'm waiting for my next life
Bring the storm I am windproof
Ten thousand trials to know enough
Mastering the art of growing up

Having a hard time knowing how to feel
Or what to believe in
And even though you haunt me in my sleep
I keep dreaming, dreaming
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
I'm facing this alone, alone, alone
Oh, Lord
Oh, Lord