Catch-25

There's a demon in my head
And he whispers in my ear
Tells me "I'll never be anything"
And he reaffirms my fears
I forget all the things I thought I knew
and forfeit all of my pursuits
Feel sorry for myself until
the passion leaves my eyes

25
And filled with so much life
But no one knows what goes on
In my head every night

What's the reason that I'm standing?
What's the reason that I breathe?
Why was I born with desire for something that I can't reach?
When it's all I've ever wanted
There's no way it could be wrong
But I have to ask the question
Will it work out?
Is it worth it when I think of all the time and what I've sacrificed for this?
But if no one hears me singing then do I even exist?

There's a demon in my heart
And every time I talk to him
He tells me "I'll be fine
If I shut my eyes for life and just give in"

I won't say "I'm sick, something's wrong with me"
Stay blind to things I'm supposed to see
Can't lose a fight that I'm not fighting
Can't fail if I don't try

25
Grow up and
Just act right
But my life feels like one big mess
I'm scared and I'm depressed to death

What's the reason that I'm standing?
What's the reason that I breathe?
Why was I born with desire for something that I can't reach?
When it's all I've ever wanted
There's no way it could be wrong
But I have to ask the question
Will it work out?
Is it worth it when I think of all the time and what I've sacrificed for this?
But if no one hears me singing then do I even exist?

I'm afraid if I don't scream no one will listen
Afraid that I can't make what I want mine
Afraid my voice is lost when I call for help
Along with all my sense of self
The vestige of a sound that never found a place to thrive

What's the reason that I'm standing?
What's the reason that I breathe?
Why was I born with desire for something that I can't reach?
When it's all I've ever wanted
There's no way it could be wrong
But I have to ask the question
Will it work out?
Is it worth it when I think of all the time and what I've sacrificed for this?
But if no one hears me singing then do I even exist?
Yeah if no one hears me singing then do I even exist?
Well if no one's there to listen
Then why even exist?



Credits
Writer(s): Brian Magnan
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