Christen's Interlude

I feel like I've let myself down
A lot of things about me have changed
Including my confidence to speak out
Like I never used to care about anything or anyone
When I see something I just
Used to get it out there without second thoughts but now?
It's like I have a thought in my mind that I can't get it out

Pree for me ma'
And I know you'd die for me ma'
Ngibaboni beba'hlala nga'phandle
Eu sei que estás preocupada com o time
Não te preocupes que o teu G tá fine
I know you know that my dime gon' come
Issa lotta distraction in my mind
But these days we just need to be fine
Yeah
What's real what's important?
Baby you can tell me whatever is in your silence
The more I be caring the less you be loving
You don't need that much to be feeling my heartbeat
Tell me what you're doing letting bitches feel my heartbeat
This is not the plan you remember what we discussed
I be touching pussies that ain't even exciting
All the free time I have I'd rather spend with you

Are you now over it or you still dealing with it?
That it's no longer as umm
As uh since it was issue like it used to be before
Like
Are you kinda like over it?
Dealing with it?
You do know what we feeling

I be sipping
Everyday in my lean I be creeping
Coz niggas I be feeling in my reveals
But don't tell me what you need
Coz I don't listen
Everything you'd be doing I don't care
Nowadays you be feeling too much fakeness
Talvez tu penses que eu queira voltar
E no seu lugar também podia pensar
Mas não é assim que se ganham as fases
I know you're happy just stick up to that
You call me fake and don't remember what we had
Can't be replaced all the things that we had
Baby don't say you don't know me
I know you want all my glory

So I think I just need to get myself together on that part
Sometimes I get doubtful
You know life sometimes it kicks you so hard
Then you start asking yourself questions like
Really? Really is that even real?
Can it?
Can it even happen?
You know stuff like that so at times
I tend to be doubtful about my own thoughts
My own dreams and um