I Am a Weed

If I live past 26, I'll see there's something more important in life than that next fix
That the world's got more to give
And that there's something even bigger than what other people think

Though I can't imagine what that would be
And I'm so wrapped up in me, lately

People tell me that I'm immature
That's not something that I'm sorry for
I've got a loud and demanding heart and there's more
More

I am a weed
I can't grow without destroying everything around me
So is it worth it to black out the sun?
And escape from everyone

Defined by tension within myself
Starved for recognition from everybody else
Desperate to be happy, but imagine what that would mean

'Cause as the future gets brighter and brighter
The ceiling gets higher and higher
While the darkness swirls in eddies all around me

I am a weed
I can't grow without destroying everything around me
So is it worth it to black out the sun?
And withdraw from everyone

I don't wanna wanna, I don't wanna wanna be at war with all my family and my friends
I don't wanna wanna, I don't wanna wanna know where every speck of dust will settle when this ends
I don't wanna wanna, I don't wanna wanna let the radiation from this battle with myself
Impact their mental health

'Cause I am a lost cause; I am a lost cause; I am a lost cause
I'm lost to the cause

I am a weed
I can't grow without destroying everything around me
So is it worth it to black out the sun?
And not make peace with everyone

'Cause as the future gets brighter and brighter
I'm fighting compassion with fire
And the flames are getting higher and higher -- and higher
While the darkness swirls in eddies all around me
Me, me, me