For Her.

All the nights of our lives spent taking our time was just a waste of mine
Tracing lines on my naked back of where to place the knives
Who'd have thought the savory flavor of tasting wine
Came from a basin of hemlock stems you laced inside
Double crossing glasses, locking lips with an assassin
There's venom in that lip gloss so let me at it
Take my heart and wrap it in a straight jacket
Trap it in a box, lock and stab it, ain't no escaping this passion
I may be batshit but I know this guano
Won't come running to a blood sucking vampire, no
I heard you loved me, turns out that's a damn lie though
So take your words and my trust, shove 'em on the pyre for
A while slow roasting, God knows
They're better off as ashes and hot coals swept as the gust blows
Tenderly 'till nothing's left but memories and all those
Regrets that you lent to me, there's lots of those
I must be stupid thinking you would never do what you did
Tied the knot, why'd it start to loosen?
Stayed afraid of watching it fray, never thought you'd take the loose ends
And hastily mend them into a noose meant for who's neck
I think it must've been mine, rending and biting
And ending every night fighting into bedtime, I'm getting tired
And I just want to rest my reddened eyes and let it die
So why you bent on trying extending its life
Like a general who wants more of our war
Armory sharpened and claws raw
Artillery loaded and tanks rolling to flank me off guard
I'm exhausted, go toss your fatigues back in your armoire
It's all en garde, drawn blood, and I'm sorry's
And all of these apologies mark more
The hardest part is how I never wanted to part
Remember when you said we were best friends? I guess it was all talk
I'm not falling for it no more, I'm taking my leave
Seems our garden had a snake in the trees
Eden the fruit we grew upon our laboring knees
Who'da knew our true love could be make believe
I hate the way I love you, I hate the way I hate you
I hate the way that every little thing makes me think of you
I hate the pain that comes with every memory I used to love
That suddenly was tainted, won't somebody say it ain't true
Ain't you glad to see the masterpiece we painted
How you drew your blade and made me wish that I could just erase you
Replace you with emptiness and reminisce
On how the lack of color brings to light the darkness in our hearts and brains too
Make you a eulogy for you to read of what we used to be
And let it cruelly sweep into the sea for foolish reasons
You been thieving, you stole what I found to believe in
And now our holy ground's a hole in the ground for the demons
Let 'em rest in pieces, I'm long gone
Hope it's what you've always wanted all along
I'll chalk up the bodies and chalk you up to just another lost cause
Cut my losses, cut you off and walk on
And start forgetting all about you, and rend you out my heart
I shoulda listened to it whispering when I started to doubt you
So sayonara I'm a goner, let's pretend this never started
Honestly I'm better off without you