Let Me Vent III

Let me vent, let me vent
Let me vent, can I vent
I need to vent, so let me vent
Its been some time since I vented
Let me vent, yeah let me vent, I need to vent
Yo, Let me vent, let me vent
Let me vent, let me vent
Can I vent, I need to vent
So let me vent, its been some time since I vented
Let me vent, yeah let me vent, I need to vent

Today got me feeling kinda funny, insane
Every time I try to focus something starts bringing pain
Every time I get my money right they start playing games
Hit my line acting like they been feeling this way
Say the love me and the need me they just want me to stay
Back before it was this way I knew all of them would hate
Behind my back be throwing shade
Claim you love me, it's fake
Well get the fuck out my face, because today ain't the day
I'm not okay let me say, it some shit deep on my brain.
I love my fam, but I'm an outlaw
Who would I be without y'all
I'd prolly be another nigga posted on the block dawg
Or I'd prolly be another nigga running from the cops
Thank god I had you niggas by my side
Because I would've been met my demise
But when I look I get surprised
I only keep in touch with a few from that side
My brothers grew up, blew up, moved up
My aunts and uncle are congruent
And I'm just moving, crying deep inside
From all my bruising I often think of times
When it was 9 of us plus doing dope stuff
And I ain't taking coke but I mean more like
Writing poems and showing em to each other
Just so we can share the trials that we under
It was times we had each other walking rain and the thunder
It was times we had the covers wrapped around 6 of us
Bundled up, just the cousins
And now my heart, it suffers
Seeing y'all share that laughter
Got me sick to my stomach
Where was my invite
I wish I was there but I wasn't
And fuck it if I had got the invite
I wouldn't have ended coming
Or came high unlike you wanted
That ain't the truth, right now I'm blunted and frontin

Just let me vent
It's a lot inside my head
I wish it would go away
I came in this world with a purpose
And I want to create
I hold you all close to my heart and if I left here today
I want every one of you to know that it's all love
It's all love
I want every one of you to know that it's all love
It's all love

It's all love I got your back until the day that you die
Could never hate you, even if we don't speak
I know you have a life and it don't involve me
I know we closer to the end, it ain't peaches and cream
I know it's pain inside your heart that you would never speak
Some people steady hurting cuz of me
I know the music that I make ain't necessarily your cup of tea
A lot of time I talk destructively
Or I'm speaking on some shit I shouldn't mention
Like sexual tension
I shouldn't glorify that type of stuff in my position
I know my sisters listen
I know my brothers listen
I know my aunties and my uncles listen
Or at least they have tried
I'm not comfortable with paining you guys
I couldn't stand to see that look in your eyes
Huh it's like ever since B Jones left I been debating
Conquering my vices, no more smoking or complaining
Clean with how I'm moving like a game of chess we playing
Except this is my life and I'm the reason I've been drained
I know that this is my life and I know why I'm this way
Don't ever think that I am throwing shade
I know the histories rich
We've come a long way
And I wouldn't change a fucking thing
I mean go back to poverty with hella heads in the crib
Ain't how everybody tryna live, shit
And working through your battles
Every second trying to grip the fact that you are all you have to give
And then to think about the other side of it
Challenging, easy to give into temptation
I just want to shape the future for the next generation
But they don't think I have what it be taking
They don't understand what I be sayin
I know I'm rilled up
Just look at how I rose
I didn't understand or comprehend what I was told
I had to go and learn for myself until I broke
I made my choice and for years I had to cope
But now I'm standing on my own two feet
I wish we moved at a unit
I think that thoughts too deep
I know the way I was moving
Prolly brought us to this
Wasn't there to suffer like the rest of my cousins
Wasn't there hand in hand picking up the drumming
I didn't even get to the other side yet
Dear Maleek and Uncle Ricci
Last encounter wasn't pretty
I still can't fathom half the battles y'all be living through
I'm too young or I ain't seen what you seen
We grew up and split between at the seem
That's all I have to say

I want to talk about the good times
Back before responsibilities and all these back problems
I was coolin in the 3rd grade young black boy bussing moves
I was getting paid
Met my Puerto Rican homie Jose
Fast forward 5 grade talking bout the industry
Fast forward 23 I see that nigga on the scene
Dub C we was out there puffing trees talking schemes
I can't believe we made it this far I'm humbly astonished
Back in Octorara I had learned to turn a profit.
Hit the dollar store, turkey hill, we was robbin
Pull up to the school selling candy out the locker
Whole block popping, that was til they stopped it
But niggas couldn't stop my elevation to the top



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Writer(s): Marcus Carter Ii
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