Mixed Emotions (Inspired by Dark Clouds)

Life came fast but I still got some youth in me
And I ain't really proud of the person that I used to be
Turned so cold hearted I ain't choose to be
It was from people I loved but were abusing me

Got so many scars that ain't heal right
Wanted you back but it ain't feel right
Homie in the trenches holdin' on to that steel tight
Girl of my dreams my worst nightmare in my real life

Coping with anxiety trying to find emotions still lingering deep inside of me
And I finally,
Realized why you lied saying that you'd slide for me
Trying to outrun my demons but they keep finding me

I know that we're stressin battling our depression
If I'm the one why you always second guessing?
Want to question God but have to trust his methods
Lyrics my confessions listen to feel the message

I've been torn apart for so long I done became numb
Don't know if you remember you broke my heart in December
You said I was the one
You had me, but you lost me
I'm not mad I'm exhausted
Please, please if you come around give me something to make me smile
It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds
Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds
It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds
Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds

Those cold long nights I think about it daily
Even if I don't make it this music really saved me
Sleepin in the back seat only some know how them days be
Don't think you would praise me if you saw how I went crazy

I'm tired of all this tension I don't need your attention
We all make mistakes but yours were never mentioned
Dial up your number while I'm drinking in my section
Know you still in love with me, girl just stop pretending

Money can't buy happiness you know this because you well of
I know you see me now wishing that you still held on
Admired what you stood for, until you fell off
My love for you is bigger than the ocean so I sailed off

Hearts frozen, soul shattered and it's stolen
How will love heal me if that's the reason that I'm broken?
Always playing games but that's okay here's my tokens
These are just my feelings sorry for the mixed emotions

I been feeling pain for so long, I done became numb
I don't make it no better, I give my heart to whoever they take it and they run
You had me, but you lost me, I'm not mad I'm exhausted
Please, please if you come around give me something to make me smile
It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds
Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds
It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds
Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds