Why Me

Sitting in my room waiting for your call
even though I know you won't.
I don't know why I fell so into this that
I ignored everyone and everything for you even though
I knew you won't do the same,
even when I knew you won't even try to make time for me,
even when I knew you won't pick my call up if you were free.
I guess that's just how I am
I love you too much and fall for you every single time,
I guess that's what keeps me going.
I forgive you every-time,
I apologize even when it's not even my mistake to keep you happy.
I don't get tired of trying to make you happy
but I do get annoyed because I need the same energy from you
and I rarely ever get it. When you're emojis disappeared,
when you excited to talk to me faded away,
even when the person that couldn't sleep at night
without me being there went away in a couple of months.
I ignored it all because I thought maybe
you're happier that way that's why I let it happen.
I blinded myself by the love you used to give me.
I don't know what more to do.
How much more understanding can a person be?
How patient? How forgiving?.
Everyone has problems but they learn to solve them together.
it's almost been 2 years.
I still get annoyed by that (nothing)
whenever I say what's up or ask you what you're doing.
I don't know what more to do.
Can't beg you for attention.
I can just wait and see you leave this city and
I knew everything is gonna change even though
you say it won't I know
it would be because that change has already begun.
all I can do or do is pray to get the person I fell in love with,
the person I got insanely obsessed with back even for a minute
I just want her back.
Is that too much to ask for? Is it?

Just miss you even though you're here but it feels like you're not,
can't seem to figure out what I did wrong to deserve this.
Why me?