i tried everything (feat. Kailee Morgue & Zaini)

I swear I've tried everything
cut the coffee for some tea
cutting friends off who were mean
and i tried to get more sleep

I swear I tried everything they said's supposed to work
How come no one told me as a kid that life's supposed to hurt
Yeah I heard that better days are right around the corner but
I peeked around it just to find out that I'm sort of fucked (damn)
So now I walk around emotionless a hopeless mess
Drowning in this hopelessness
Pretending that I'm swimming let's see how long I can hold my breath
Before I hit the bottom floor
Hide away and lock my door and overthink my problems more

I just don't know why it's gotta be this hard to exist
There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz

I swear I've tried everything
cut the coffee for some tea
cutting friends off cuz they're mean
and i tried to get more sleep

I swear I've tried everything and haven't seen a result
Wish I could go back to my teens don't wanna be an adult
My life just isn't how it seemed it'd be when I was a kid
Now when I wake up from my dreams
I wish that never woke cuz they're so vivid
But the second I get out of bed I watch it fade to monotone
Surrounded by the ones I love but in my head I'm all alone
I put my phone silent take a walk and then it starts to rain
Coincidence but ever since it happened haven't been the same

Why's it gotta be this hard to exist
There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz

I swear I've tried everything
cut the coffee for some tea
cutting friends off cuz they're mean
and i tried to get more sleep

I swear I've tried it all
Got better sleep
Had therapy two times a week
I hit a wall and I broke to pieces
still ain't gotten back on my feet
I don't recall feeling like myself
This medication I'm on's no help
I try to hide how I feel inside
but I'm losing grip of my mental health

Why's it gotta be this hard to exist
There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz

I swear I've tried everything
cut the coffee for some tea
cutting friends off who were mean
and i tried to get more sleep
but the roots are planted so deep
do you think that you could love me