Ruthless

I only go on dates when the weatherman calls for rain
In hopes that you kiss me as it's pouring down
But the rain, it never came

I keep an old vase in my closet
In case you leave flowers at my door
But then I'm reminded
People my age don't do things like that anymore

I read all about it when I was young
Then watched my parents fall out of love
I'm finding out what the truth is
You could say love is ruthless
I know it exists but not for me
It's hard to forget all the things that I've seen
Trying to find out it's not useless
Prove to me love isn't ruthless

I saved all the voicemails you left me
Just so I don't forget
That we had something bigger than us
Is love supposed to end in regret?

I have your old sweatshirt hidden
And I haven't washed it since
The night you forgot it, I probably should toss it
Should've known that we'd end up like this

'Cause I read all about it when I was young
Then watched my parents fall out of love
I'm finding out what the truth is
You could say love is ruthless
I know it exists but not for me
It's hard to forget all the things that I've seen
Trying to find out it's not useless
Prove to me love isn't ruthless

I'm sick of the waiting
All of the pacing I've done
To try to not fall out of love
Before I even knew what it was

I know it exists but not for me
It's hard to forget all the things that I've seen
Trying to find out it's not useless
Prove to me love isn't ruthless