Delusional

I woke up to that sound, my voice is calling me
I take a look around, darkness is crawling in
Knocked me to the ground, now it's bossing me
Peace was never found, I think I am lost indeed
No matter how I feel I need anxiety's pills
So I finally will, survive in this field
Self abusive still, Alive when I'm killed
Cuz cuts make me chill when I'm Trying to be healed
Pass me meds, 'fore it blast the head
That being said, I'm not happy faced
Still the same shit, I'm laughing dead
Can't escape this shit, I'm trapped in here! (In hey)
Couldn't cross the X's (exes), trapped by the O's (hoes)
It's some weird shit, you can't say adios
Thoughts on new level, that's how we roll
Dancing with the devil, here the party goes

I don't think, I meant to hurt you
This ain't my plant to, do this to you
But I will peel your skin too
This is makes me wonder what should I do

Used to hurt people cuz it would bring me peace
Fuck it, I still do, that's my basic need
Worse than Norman bates, you know what I did
Wore my momma's face and then I shot a kid (myself)
Same as Dexter but I don't work for cops
Bloody textures but with dirt on tops
I'm not a Morgan, cuz I grabbed the organs
Made a beautiful dish like I'm Mister Gordon
Hence according, opinions forming
They say I'm a cannibal, they sending warning
But I'm just an animal, I don't mean no harming
Part of the nature, don't come at me swarming
Killing must feel good to god too (Hannibal)
I'm the same deal, made in his image too
Multiple personalities I'm the same dude
Voices talking to me but I don't know who

I don't think, I meant to hurt you
This ain't my plant to, do this to you
But I will, if I have to
These thoughts, in my head, make me kill you

Still hearing voices? you better cut the act
Enough with being student, now it's time to rap(wrap)
College never made you happy, u know That's a fact
You belong with me and you don't escape that!
It's your body but my words and everything on the track
I possess your body and you can never have it back
Persona you can't beat with everything you have
Losing me is losing you, I'm your other half
Girls from your past ain't the problem, you know
You are the reason, they ever left you, true though
Also reason for your problems, you chose
Everybody laughing, because you're a new joke!
Fell in bottomless Abyss with linen of golden thread
Carrying weight of true guilt, inside my fuckin' head
Can not change my fate no matter what choice i made
No matter what I did, still penitent one is dead

I don't think, I meant to hurt you
This ain't my plant to, do this to you
But I will peel your skin too
These thoughts, in my head, make me kill you