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Back when I was thirteen
I used to hurt myself
Didn't think that I mattered
To anyone else
All that I wanted was
To be loved by you
Turns out you're gay
Maybe I am too
Who knew

I never thought that
I would make it this far
Driving downtown
Blowing jays in
Your beaten up car
And how could I have known
That the road would have
Turned this sharp
Plenty of time has gone by
To mend my broken heart

Three days after
I turned seventeen
I dropped acid
To forget everything
During that trip I felt
Trapped in my own mind
But I kept going back to you
Time after time after time

And I never thought that
I woulda made it that far
Driving you around
Hearing the sounds of
My shitty old car
And how could we have known
That the road would have
Curved that sharp
Why do I always
Fall for the ones with no heart

I often dreamed of being
The one that you come home to
It's time to say goodbye
But all I wanna do is hold you

In my twenties now
I haven't changed a bit
I still find myself putting up
With everyone's shit
You'd think by this point
I wouldn't hate myself
There comes a time when you
Tolerate the flames of hell
It sucks, but oh well

I never thought that
I would make it this far
I know I'm the first
Probably the worst
But I'll set the bar
Haven't known you quite long
But will you play
This song in your car
And your stereos broke but
I hope that it touches your heart
Well at least it's a start