open letter

This feel like the final countdown...

All these moments have shown
That love may not survive on a path of your own
And some will not accept the heights
To which you have grown
It's just easy to neglect and project all the wrong
See I knew all along Yeah
Im not perfect I'll admit it
I'm still adjusting from decisions
If I got locked would you come visit
See my thoughts come by the minute
Learn to maneuver on my pivot
On a tightrope like a gymnast
Treading water like Im swimming
Already planned it to the finish
Tryna triple up my digits
Gotta get up out this scrimmage
But I'm not playing hope you get it
Cause Im speaking in hues
Watching the sunset from a marvelous view
Thinking bout all it took to finally be you
Gazing into the clouds at high altitudes
I'm in one of those moods
My love ones give me stress love
But its cool I can't vex love
Self love is the best love
Can't rely on the rest love
But you different from the rest love
So I invest love
Cause I ain't come this far to stay the same
You can't tell spring not to change
You can't tell clouds not to rain
Good thing my tires all terrain
Cause I persevered
But I went left when the fork appeared
I chose love through the course of years
I cut ties just to keep me here
Its been a hell of a year
2020 well never forget it
Quarantine had to deal with our feelings
Corona ain't the only one out killing
Cop took a knee on a nigga for minutes
The choices the choices
I feel helpless I feel voiceless
I'm a black man can't avoid it
It's not entertaining
I don't get enjoyment
I didn't want to have to end it this way
But
I cant ignore it either
The choice