If you knew

Mind ain't stopped thinking lately
I been fighting demons lately
Ain't really trying to see the night
Living wrong trying to see the daily
Don't mind why I grind this hard just trying to feed my baby
I been going crazy lately
Having problems with my loved ones guessing they can see the changes
Mind playing tricks on me cause I'm a lady guess it don't even phase them
Battling with problems from past Just wanna leave em where they at

But if only you knew
You a probably treat me different
But you don't so I'm seeing different
Gave so much to those that don't deserve me
Out here tryna find ways to forgive all of those who hurt me

Lost my mind trying to find myself
But It's like the more I fall apart trying to keep it together
Casey give me the blues when I look up at her
I get abnormal they treat me like I don't be facing the weathers
Like them
Time keep passing by
But the pain I feel seem like it won't depart
I keep trying but nothing seem to
Heal my broken heart
And my mind won't stop tripping
Keep having crazy thoughts
So forgive me if I act a lil weird

I don't really got nobody Can't lie when I think about it
I am Crazy and I do got some problems
I think I know how to love but I don't too many scars
Thought they had me they still left too many flaws I'm guessing

But if only you knew you a probably treat me different
But you don't so I'm seeing different
Gave so much to those that don't deserve me
Out here trying to find ways to forgive all of those who hurt me

Abusing all of these drugs trying to escape reality
But when it's done and done I still feel the pain in me
They keep saying they love me
Why it ain't so plain to see
I keep keeping my distance cause they always over see
To know me Is to love me
To hurt me you should be ashamed
They say they love me why I feel the hate in them
Aint play the blame game I was real too you
But they forgiven It wasn't intentional I still feel for them

But if only you knew
You a probably treat me different
But you don't so I'm seeing different
Gave so much to those that don't deserve me
Out here trying to find ways to forgive all of those who hurt me

And mama we all make mistakes so anything I ever say don't you feel ashamed
We had some bumpy roads but mama you still did your thang
But it's still some shit I still feel like I gotta to say mama
Even though it's a lot of you could of did different
Ima leave that shit in the past cause you did what you could with me
But mama I ain't go lie i ain't really feel the living
It's a lot you could of did with me you say you tired
But in real life you just couldn't deal with me
And I still pray to god he help me give to her
Cause that's my baby you my lady I love you
I know we fight a lot so I just wanted you to know

I love my ma to death cause she made me
18 years without my father no proper guidance
A lot of experiences and head knots
And just a whole lot of faith in god
Not so proud to say it
But this what it is the streets raised me
My own way I made it shout out to the niggas who blessed me along the way
I thank different
I hate that they don't understand me I think different
A lot of bitches moved shady along the way so I can't bring them