To My Future Self

To my future self
Don't forget how you felt
When no one was willing to give you some help
When no one was willing to lend you a hand
To all the people I ain't seeing again
I ain't mad I had to pick up a pen
Just to show who I am
That's just how it go
You don't gotta go and tell 'em when you lose control
Cause when you down who really gonna be answering phones
So many times I had to keep my thoughts right to my own
And anytime they needed me I was always just there
But can you blame someone for not really being aware
Can you blame someone for not really giving a care
I don't know but what I know is that I'm on my way
All this food I got and now they tryna eat my plate
Funny how they come around when you be doing great
Why they talking why they talking can't relate, shit
Cause it always come down to the hate, ya
I had some jealousy inside my veins, ya
You know I really lived my life in vain, ya
But that was back then, ya
Just like the rain you know it went away, ya
One day it gonna start again
It don't matter where you start it matter where you end
I know this life ain't really easy it's just how it goes
I know we all just got our problems that nobody knows
You could lose it all
Almost lost myself I almost called it off
But I won't cut it off
Cause we just getting started yea
That's just how it go
You don't gotta go and tell 'em when you lose control
Cause when you down who really gonna be answering phones
So many times I had to keep my thoughts right to my own
And anytime they needed me I was always just there
But can you blame someone for not really being aware
Can you blame someone for not really giving a care
I don't know but what I know is that I'm on my way